Understand What You Do Not Understand

Wasted. Forgotten. Neglected. Removed. That's what I'm feeling right now. I was at the lowest point that no one else could lift me out from here. No one. Sad, low, disappointed, resentful, angry, miserable, all I feel at this moment. I feel this is all unfair. I don't know what my fault. I don't understand what really happened. I was just forced to understand something that I don't understand. I was forced into this condition. Situation that I never wanted.  
Why? Why are you forcing me to understand things that I don't understand?! You know........... I've never wanted to be here. I don't want to feel this (again). But the fact is, you forced me to understand and follow all of your wishes. Now, I have to get up from here. This is not my place. I should not be here. I will rise even if slowly.